Invisible Monsters, Sketched by Baizurah Basri
No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense that you missed something… the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how life will feel someday.
– Invisible Monsters, Chuck Palahniuk.
I want to take things slow but everything is moving too fast. I am rushing headlong into things like I have thousands of datelines to catch. But the truth is I don’t even care about datelines anymore. I am just in a hurry to get everything done so that I could finally breath easy again.
I feel like I am missing something but I don’t know what it is. I’ve dedicated too much of my waking hours working my ass off. I thought by doing that I would feel a sense of completion – the kind of feeling you get from having a job well done. But no, I feel no such thing. Instead, when I am this busy I feel really really hopelessly lost – not to mention very very tired.
I really need to pick my moods up. I need to see an uplifting movie or an inspiring shot. I need a tub of ice-cream and Chocolate Cupcakes. I need a cat to cheer up my life. I could also use a free vacation to Hawaii. I need a house on a mountain top and brand new Lamborghini. I need a fat bank account and a Yale degree. I need a new name and a brand new life.!
But if I can’t have all that, I’d settle for a driving license and a Black Myvi for my birthday… and I would give up a whole year worth of vacation time if I could have a new boss – yeah, I need a brand new boss like RIGHT NOW!